It's going to be hard to ignore the ever increasing bullshit volume this year.. it is after all an election year.
I guess all years are election years or some sorts, but this one is the Super Bowl of elections, every four years whether you want to or not.
I use the Super Bowl analogy for a very specific reason.. because the Super Bowl is a very American thing and only Americans are this way about the big elections.
We also tend to treat it very much as a "my team won" or "your team lost" kind of thing. It's not about bragging rights or being "on the winning team" this shit is much more important that that and we are so caught up in it they it seems like few people see that.
What is best for the majority may not be whats best for me. If I am always supporting the team thats best for me and "I lose" in the bigger picture we all won. And the longer we continue to view this shit as a game for bragging rights and pushing agendas that benefit only us directly, then we are all going to continue to lose and every time we do this the stakes get bigger and bigger.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Monday, January 2, 2012
THE DROPPING OF THE BALL
There will be no resolutions this year.
I am 1.5 for 3 in 2011. I resolved to: do a trail run, a half marathon, and a marathon. I ran a half marathon and the long leg of a marathon relay.
I also said 2011 was going to be my year, and I guess in a lot of ways it was. I got what I was gunning for and now I am drowning in it (or at least I feel like that on most days).
For 2012, I am resolving nothing. We will see where it takes me.
I full intend to end the year in a different place (likely not physical place, though that would be ok too) that I will be starting it. That is actually guaranteed already (I have a bit on inside information; another not necessarily good or bad, just different, could certainly play out either).
Right now, I am not looking at much past our LONG overdue escape/vacation.. Belize & Guatamala in a month! .. I can almost smell the rainforest ...
Best wishes for 2012 for all.
I am 1.5 for 3 in 2011. I resolved to: do a trail run, a half marathon, and a marathon. I ran a half marathon and the long leg of a marathon relay.
I also said 2011 was going to be my year, and I guess in a lot of ways it was. I got what I was gunning for and now I am drowning in it (or at least I feel like that on most days).
For 2012, I am resolving nothing. We will see where it takes me.
I full intend to end the year in a different place (likely not physical place, though that would be ok too) that I will be starting it. That is actually guaranteed already (I have a bit on inside information; another not necessarily good or bad, just different, could certainly play out either).
Right now, I am not looking at much past our LONG overdue escape/vacation.. Belize & Guatamala in a month! .. I can almost smell the rainforest ...
Best wishes for 2012 for all.
Tuesday, December 27, 2011
THAT SENSE OF ACCOMPLISHMENT
Today is my last day of vacation. I am ashamed to admit that the Bailey's bottle is still half full.
Very untrue to form I just don't have taste for it these past couple days. Beer or wine either. Just water and tea.
That first day of vacation when I was home alone, believe it or not I spent a solid 9 hours of it cleaning. Yes, cleaning. Not the normal weekly/monthly cleaning, that yearly or less cleaning. The one where are the rugs come up, the hardwoods and tiles get scrubbed, the furniture and appliances get pulled out and the areas under and behind them cleaned. The living room gets re arraigned and every single corner, trim/floor board and all doors scrubbed.
No one will notice it but me, and that is just fine. I think it's marvelous.
All those little things you see and can't get to so they get put off. It's hard enough keeping up with the family and job, this the the stuff that falls off the list early.
And as I sat in my nice clean house basking the the lemon fresh scent and a cup of tea I realized something. I was downright giddy. I spent the entire day cleaning and the house looks incredible. I see it every time I look at a door or a set of blinds.
I had a sense of accomplishment.
It has been so long since I had that in any shape or form that I could see or touch. I have run a few races since then, but running is a process, not a deliverable. There's nothing to see, touch, admire (yes, the medals are nice, but that just doesn't do it for me)... it all makes sense.
That's what's missing.
It's like the clouds parted and the sun burst through all of a sudden.
Well, shit. Now I know what I am looking for....
That should make finding it a hell of a lot easier.. time well spent.
Very untrue to form I just don't have taste for it these past couple days. Beer or wine either. Just water and tea.
That first day of vacation when I was home alone, believe it or not I spent a solid 9 hours of it cleaning. Yes, cleaning. Not the normal weekly/monthly cleaning, that yearly or less cleaning. The one where are the rugs come up, the hardwoods and tiles get scrubbed, the furniture and appliances get pulled out and the areas under and behind them cleaned. The living room gets re arraigned and every single corner, trim/floor board and all doors scrubbed.
No one will notice it but me, and that is just fine. I think it's marvelous.
All those little things you see and can't get to so they get put off. It's hard enough keeping up with the family and job, this the the stuff that falls off the list early.
And as I sat in my nice clean house basking the the lemon fresh scent and a cup of tea I realized something. I was downright giddy. I spent the entire day cleaning and the house looks incredible. I see it every time I look at a door or a set of blinds.
I had a sense of accomplishment.
It has been so long since I had that in any shape or form that I could see or touch. I have run a few races since then, but running is a process, not a deliverable. There's nothing to see, touch, admire (yes, the medals are nice, but that just doesn't do it for me)... it all makes sense.
That's what's missing.
It's like the clouds parted and the sun burst through all of a sudden.
Well, shit. Now I know what I am looking for....
That should make finding it a hell of a lot easier.. time well spent.
Friday, December 23, 2011
BAILEYS
I have the big bottle of Bailey's, today plus the next 4 days off, and no plan.
I have a short list of things I'd like to spend some time on.. working my way through some things sitting on the DVR, take a walk, surf the job postings, spend some time planning our early February vacation, but that's the end of my ambition currently.
The blackberry is off. It's plugged in so it has that soothing green glow (that reminds me its OFF). The peace that brings me is indescribable. I am logged out of gchat and I doubt I will be checking any of my personal email accounts.
I think I'll plan to kill off that bottle of Bailey's over the next couple of days. But not much else. This is my peace on earth.
I have a short list of things I'd like to spend some time on.. working my way through some things sitting on the DVR, take a walk, surf the job postings, spend some time planning our early February vacation, but that's the end of my ambition currently.
The blackberry is off. It's plugged in so it has that soothing green glow (that reminds me its OFF). The peace that brings me is indescribable. I am logged out of gchat and I doubt I will be checking any of my personal email accounts.
I think I'll plan to kill off that bottle of Bailey's over the next couple of days. But not much else. This is my peace on earth.
Sunday, December 18, 2011
REDEFINING THE TERMS
Typically, I hate Christmas. Ok. Maybe not hate, just dislike.
Probably for the same reason the other non-Christmas lovers feel the same way- the blatant over-commercialization, rationalized idiocy (i.e. crazy black Friday people), and the travel nightmares (overbooked, overpriced, crazy stressful, blah blah blah)..
But you know what? This year is different. I have barely even noticed it.
I swore off traveling for Christmas after the Biscuit's first Christmas right after he was born. I spent my entire life traveling for Christmas and fuck that. Done. I have a nice comfy house and if I want to enjoy it then I am going to do it here. This is the second year in a row I've stayed put- its the best decision I have made. I intend to spend all my Christmas' at home.
I do all my shopping online and additionally, I have embraced the gift card. I love them, I buy them. If you don't like it, too fucking bad. I love them. I detest useless dust collecting stuff and I hate even the possibility that I could be giving exactly that to someone else. Unless I am sure its something that person needs/wants, gift card and done.
One of the positives that I have coming out of my sustained work crazy is that I have been too busy to really notice or spend any time observing the Christmas crazy and also since I have been so wrapped up in that on a daily basis, I don't have the energy or aspiration to really dig into any Christmas crazy. If its easy and quick, fine. If not or has even the mere possibility of being involved, I'll pass.
I declined the departmental Holiday lunch (off site and on a Sunday afternoon!), nope. Too inconvenient.
What's left: the house is all decorated, The Biscuit LOVES playing with the train, and I am well stocked for mulled wine and a variety of sweets and cheeses. I have 5 consecutive days off work with zero plans or aspirations.
It's going to be the best Christmas ever! I just hope it doesn't snow (inconvenient!)
Probably for the same reason the other non-Christmas lovers feel the same way- the blatant over-commercialization, rationalized idiocy (i.e. crazy black Friday people), and the travel nightmares (overbooked, overpriced, crazy stressful, blah blah blah)..
But you know what? This year is different. I have barely even noticed it.
I swore off traveling for Christmas after the Biscuit's first Christmas right after he was born. I spent my entire life traveling for Christmas and fuck that. Done. I have a nice comfy house and if I want to enjoy it then I am going to do it here. This is the second year in a row I've stayed put- its the best decision I have made. I intend to spend all my Christmas' at home.
I do all my shopping online and additionally, I have embraced the gift card. I love them, I buy them. If you don't like it, too fucking bad. I love them. I detest useless dust collecting stuff and I hate even the possibility that I could be giving exactly that to someone else. Unless I am sure its something that person needs/wants, gift card and done.
One of the positives that I have coming out of my sustained work crazy is that I have been too busy to really notice or spend any time observing the Christmas crazy and also since I have been so wrapped up in that on a daily basis, I don't have the energy or aspiration to really dig into any Christmas crazy. If its easy and quick, fine. If not or has even the mere possibility of being involved, I'll pass.
I declined the departmental Holiday lunch (off site and on a Sunday afternoon!), nope. Too inconvenient.
What's left: the house is all decorated, The Biscuit LOVES playing with the train, and I am well stocked for mulled wine and a variety of sweets and cheeses. I have 5 consecutive days off work with zero plans or aspirations.
It's going to be the best Christmas ever! I just hope it doesn't snow (inconvenient!)
Monday, December 5, 2011
HURRY
I am sitting on the plane waiting to take off bound for a work confrence in Ft. Myers Beach, Florida. I am scheduled to return Thursday afternoon.
It wasn't until I got an email from US Scare yesterday for check in that I realized my outbound flight was Monday afternoon and not Tuesday morning.
It wasn't until I got into the security line and was pulling out my laptop to put into it's own bin that I realized I didn't actually have it with me. In my rush to get out and get to the airport on time, I left it on my desk in my office.
I don't even have my xoom with me. Nothing.
Fuck. Too much of a hurry, damn it. I cannot believe I did that.
I feel completely naked and unprepared. I left my life and my tools behind. I have work that needed to get done and more importantly, it's time to get my resume updated.
It's probably a good thing, just gotta get my mind around it.
I'll start with a beer.
Damn.
It wasn't until I got an email from US Scare yesterday for check in that I realized my outbound flight was Monday afternoon and not Tuesday morning.
It wasn't until I got into the security line and was pulling out my laptop to put into it's own bin that I realized I didn't actually have it with me. In my rush to get out and get to the airport on time, I left it on my desk in my office.
I don't even have my xoom with me. Nothing.
Fuck. Too much of a hurry, damn it. I cannot believe I did that.
I feel completely naked and unprepared. I left my life and my tools behind. I have work that needed to get done and more importantly, it's time to get my resume updated.
It's probably a good thing, just gotta get my mind around it.
I'll start with a beer.
Damn.
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Saturday, December 3, 2011
RECALIBRATE
It's been so long since I posted, I actually forgot my password. Sad.
I've been so busy in my own life that I haven't done much out side of busy.
I keep saying I am going to get this shit sorted out and stopped and that hasn't happened either. So. New plan.
Recalibrate.
Back to basics.
Thursday: Gentleman Jack. A St. Pat's Mug.
Today: Shoe shopping & wine.
I've been so busy in my own life that I haven't done much out side of busy.
I keep saying I am going to get this shit sorted out and stopped and that hasn't happened either. So. New plan.
Recalibrate.
Back to basics.
Thursday: Gentleman Jack. A St. Pat's Mug.
Today: Shoe shopping & wine.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
West Side Market in Cleveland taken from Great Lakes Brewery
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Saturday, October 15, 2011
DECISIONS, DECISIONS
I am unsupervised next weekend and completely torn on how to spend my free time.
My wanderlust/I-am-so-sick-of-this-place/bored is in overdrive so while I partly want to spend the time low key shopping and running I also want to jump on a plane for the weekend and just get the hell out of here.
Geeze, then there's the pain in the ass coordination of all of that and the ending up father behind because of it realization that goes with that too..
Booooo!
Huh.. or I could split the difference and maybe stay home but head out to Asheville for the day on Sunday or something.. I love a long drive and the leaves will be beautiful! That's a definite option. At least I have options, I'm lucky for that.
My wanderlust/I-am-so-sick-of-this-place/bored is in overdrive so while I partly want to spend the time low key shopping and running I also want to jump on a plane for the weekend and just get the hell out of here.
Geeze, then there's the pain in the ass coordination of all of that and the ending up father behind because of it realization that goes with that too..
Booooo!
Huh.. or I could split the difference and maybe stay home but head out to Asheville for the day on Sunday or something.. I love a long drive and the leaves will be beautiful! That's a definite option. At least I have options, I'm lucky for that.
Saturday, October 8, 2011
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