MENTAL NESTING

I would have to say I feel like I have been drifting these past couple of months. Adrift in my head and in the world around me.

It's not a bad thing and I am not complaining. There's a lot of reasons for it, I think. The biggest one is probably the mentally getting prepared for the baby. It's been a lot like "mentally nesting" period of sorts.

I haven't been out and about much. There's really not much for me to do. Sitting at the bar is not much fun for me these days. I get pretty tired if I am out walking around too long. Going to the gym or to soccer was a big part of my pre-pregnancy routine, but that is out too.

I take the dogs on a 2 mile walk every morning before work (I am less tired in the mornings than after work) and other than that, I go to work and come home. I am generally pretty tired in the evenings, so there's TV, surfacing the Internet, or random reading and it seems these days I just don't have a lot to say or to contribute.

My closest friend in Raleigh moved to San Antonio a couple months ago too. I miss her a lot and that adds to it, I think. I used to run around with her a lot and with her gone and the progressing pregnancy, I think it adds into sense of drifting.

I am not depressed or unhappy, it's more like laying on a float in a pool. I am fine here for the time being- its just that this is new and very much out of the ordinary for me.

I am finished with all the baby stuff, the nursery is ready, necessary books read, all the forms are filled out and files, everything that needed to be bought has been acquired and assembled, if necessary (except the rocking chair, it's been ordered, due for delivery next week).

So I am in a holding pattern until the baby comes.

Not much I can do, but just go through the days and move on to the next. Can't get into much, plan things, or get back active until after he arrives and we manage to get the hang of it.

So I am enjoying the rest and just kicking around in my own head.